Keaton wanted to climb the hill. Cody told him they could do it but Keaton had to walk up the whole way by himself. He did it. In the last picture they are at the top of the hi waving.
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
2013 has been a year of progress, trying something new, disappointments and hope.
After 4 months of Clomid, a month of nervousness and a month waiting I am a few days away from my appointment with Dr. Slater, the Reproductive Endocrinologist. I am excited and anxious but ready for some answers. Ready to have a firm plan, hopefully progress that can be monitored with the future of a baby.
Thank you for all the love, support and encouragement. It has been an emotional and hormonal journey. The most enlightening part of the journey has been the stories that I have heard from others struggling. Many friends have sent private messages sharing there successes and failures.
I know that whatever happens there is a plan. I struggling trying to understand the plan but know that I can't always see the big picture, the eternal view.
I have always loved these words from Elder Oaks.
Working on Faith...Trusting!!!
Wednesday, August 7, 2013
It is amazing the situation that we find ourselves in and the steps we do to remove ourselves from these situation. Looking back on our lives gives us a great opportunity to learn and become a better person. Whether it is the best or worse situation in our lives, we can always learn something. We would be fools not to. The situation that I found myself yesterday night and this morning has taught me a few great survival lessons on what to do and what not to do.
Living in Idaho I have a great many opportunities to be on streams, rivers and lakes. Last year I went down the Banks run on the Payette River at midnight with no lights or moon… and it was amazing. Growing up in Boy Scouts I was costumed to expanding my comfort zone in the wild and going above and beyond what I would normally do. With this ever expanding adventure attitude I have prepared myself or so I thought, to survive in the wild if needs be.
On August 6, 2013 our family friends, their friends from out of town and my family decided to go tubing the Main Payette River in Emmett Idaho. The estimate time to tube the Main Payette River is anywhere between one and half to three hours. Sunset for that day was 9:00 pm; we launched our tubes and raft around 7:30 giving us only exactly an hour and half for tubing the river. This would work perfectly if there were no incidents, accidents or lollygagging around but a strait shot down the river. Although I am not afraid of being on a river after dark it is not the best idea because of water hazards.
Experience is a great, but when your experience of tubing is going about one or two miles per hour down a river with what would be consider a class zero rapid, you don’t have much compare too. Add the elements of dark night, a river you’re not familiar with, rapids that you consider dangerous and you have a perfect equation for fear. Fear stops people from acting and puts them at danger. We encountered fear on our rafting trip and this lead us to spending four hours on a beach, stranded and waiting for relief.
9:00pm. “We’re done.” This statement stopped three adults and a child from finishing our tubing trip. After wading up to the beach through a rough current I informed the other two that our common friend would be back to get us. Instantaneously I had thoughts cascading through my brain on survival such as: how long would that be? How much would the temperature drop that night? Are there any poisonous snakes, bugs or plants on this beach? How are we to get protection? Can I build a fire? Are there any animals that can harm us out here? Are the other children ok? Did everyone else make it out ok? Can I walk back to civilization?
Despite my fear of being laughed at I started trying to make a fire by the Bow Drill and Fire Plow methods, neither worked despite my constant struggle and prayers. Realizing that was getting colder and the mother and child would only be in their swimming suits for who knows how long; we tore a hole in a floatation tube and dried it by rubbing dirt, sand and grass all over until it became dry and warm. Placing the mother and child parallel to each other for warmth and against a dirt wall for reflecting body heat, we placed the deflated tube on top of them and started breaking off branches with leaves to place on top of the tube, mother, child and wall to create a natural enclosure. Once they were covered to their shoulders we packed dirt, sand and grass underneath the tube to fill in the gaps. This natural enclosure helped capture their body heat and trap it. We also eventually took the remaining inflatable tubes and build a “wall” between them and the river stopping the cold breeze from the rapids hitting them. The child eventually said that he was warm and had stopped shivering.
After I started shivering I rubbed dirt onto by body to help trap in body heat. We saw flash lights (same ones in the My Survival in a Bottle) shortly afterwards across the river looking around and trying to see across to the other side. The flash lights were bright enough that we were able to see the light a couple hundred yards away. We got up and started waving and yelling to get their attention. We knew they had seen us because they pointed their lights at us and flashed them multiple times.
Staying next to the rapids the entire time while we waited was a good and bad decision. The good part was that is where we got out of the river and didn't move. Allowing our friend to know where we were to entire time. The bad part about staying by the rapids was that it is loud and we couldn't hear very well.
An hour later a rescue party came up behind us following our friend’s flashlights from across the river. They had followed our friend’s flashlight from the across the valley where they started to get to us. Using signals flashlights signals our friend and rescue party were able to communicate to where we were.
After walking through a couple fields, bogs and ditches we were sore footed, blistered, scratched and poked from trees, barbwire, goat heads, thicker plants and rocks. We arrived at a dirt road that led us through a thicket of tree, over another part of the river and up a hill. If we had walked without the rescue party we would never have made it. Between the plants, bogs and rocks there were also water wells, sticks, barbwire along the ground, cow manure, logs, pipes and other obstacle that could have caused us to fall and injure ourselves.
2:30am. “Are you ready?” The statement said between my wife and I that stated I was done with our tubing, camping and hiking trip with the other family and ready to get home after we had arrived at the cars the rescue party had brought.
The total time out in the elements was seven hours. This may not seem like a lot of time and it really isn’t if you are used to Idaho and all that comes with this beautiful state. Having been studying wilderness survival, boy scouts and starting My Survival prepared me immensely for this trip in the way of knowledge and know how. Although we were only a couple miles from civilization on a river that is well traveled we were not prepared and not safe. The worse issues that could have happened would have been hypothermia, poisonous plants and animals, broken body parts, slept all night on a beach, and dehydration. Do you know how to combat these?
I would like to consider the negative things we did to lead us to this situation:
· Not enough daylight if anything happened along the way
· Did not stay together as a group
· No plan on “what if”
· Expectations for what was ahead not clearly stated
· People did not stay calm
· Ego got in the way of safety with being warm
· Improper gear for traveling over ground
· No survival kit
I would like to touch upon the things done correctly:
· Knew how to create a shelter to trap body heat & barrier against cold front
· Rescuers had flashlight codes for signaling
· Rescuers had a rescue plan
How My Survival in a Bottle would have help:
· Build a fire quickly with matches and fire starters
· Build a shelter out of blanket and trash bag
· Been able to use a flashlight to signal and/or walk to civilization
· Use a whistle to sound location
· Use water powder to make water drinkable
· There are more ideas but there were the most important things My Survival in a Bottle could have helped accomplish
I will never leave home, go on a trip or do anything again without My Survival in a Bottle.
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
Warning this includes personal information and girly content. If you are troubled by this subject matter stop reading now.
After 4 months on Clomid. I am still not ovulating. The next step is seeing Dr. Slater, the Reproductive Endocrinologist. Good news is that I have heard and met many great babies that she assisted on their journey to their families. Bad news insurance will no longer covering anything...All Cash from here on out.
I am really nervous to set up my appointment with her. I am thinking that I will set it up for the first of September? She is booked out until the 1st of August....I'm nervous just thinking about it right now.
I am still having a hard time understanding timing but believe that I need to do all I can... I am trying to move forward with complete faith, "nothing wavering." Sometimes it is so hard to completely let go to trust in the plan that the Lord has for me.
While I wait I pray for understanding and guidance. I know that all things will work out in their correct time. For now I will wait.
Monday, June 17, 2013
I'm so sad this is the last week. Sadly I wont be able to take the next class for a while...I need to save up some money. :)
This week we studied tricks with light. Silhouette, Star bursts and and white balance tricks. It is fun to combined a few in one.
So glad I have such a great husband and son.
|f/29 1/1250 sec ISO 640 Tungsten|
|f/29 1/1250 sec ISO 640|
|The original. I liked the light pole but felt the image was better cropped...Maybe not. I like it both ways.|
These classes have been great personally and have help my skills as a photographer immensely. Brooke and Sarah have been great. Thank you!!!
Monday, June 10, 2013
I had a really hard time with this weeks assignment. I was stuck with the idea or sun burst, once I reread the assignment I felt that wasn't exactly what I was suppose to be doing. I was glad that my classmates were having some of the same concerns. Today I finally had an idea, I should just create the dramatic light.
I know there is a little blur on his hand and the corner of the book but I picked it because I love, love, love his expression. We highly recommend the book... "Llama Llama Misses Momma"
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I cropped the picture and adjust the lighting a little using PicMonkey.
Using PicMonkey I also turned it B & W. I think I like it better in color.
I love that this expression made me think. I have actually been thinking a lot about being intentional. I find this helpful in my personal life too. Overall I am please with the photos, minus the blue angry bird, the truth is you can see Woody, fish and a Lego Dump Truck. :)
I should also mention that I was holding the camera.
Sunday, May 26, 2013
|f4.5 1/60 ISO 400|
I love this photo. My little man has the brightest eyes. They always catch light!
Assignment: 1 photo with Catch light
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One with out.
|f5 1/20sec ISO 400|
After taking a closer look-there is light in her eyes. I also feel like I exposed the photo poorly.
Monday, May 6, 2013
This picture was taken in our backyard on a cloudy but sunny day. I was sitting on the patio under a balcony.
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This picture when was taken during our BBQ tonight.The weather was suppose to be 81. Nope, we had dark clouds and a thunderstorm.
|f2.5 1/25 ISO-800|
Monday, April 29, 2013
|This shot is blurry but I added it because I like the tunnel look that the bridge gives.|
Here are my photos for this week. I had over 100 so it was hard to narrow it down.
|f/14 1/30 ISO-400|
|f/3.2 1/640 ISO 400|
|f/13 1/80 ISO-400|
I really like this last photo. I think it breaks some of the rules but I think it works.
Monday, April 22, 2013
This was the hardest week. The shots are not as artistically thought out as I would have liked but I think they illustrate the concepts.
PANNING- this photo was taken behind my windshield. I was hoping to get a jogging photo but this will have to do.
|29 1/30 ISO 400|
FROZEN ACTION- Look no hands!
|9.0 1/1000 ISO 400|
IMPLIED MOTION- I couldn't decide on one, so I picked 2 photos. I love this first photo because it shows his excitement-his expression in perfect.
|32 1/50 ISO 400|
|36 1/50 ISO 500|
I love this tree photo because even though it was super windy the leaves are crisp while the "helicopters" are blowing.
Monday, April 15, 2013
Sunday, March 24, 2013
Just finished my second month of Clomid. Let's just say I feel
extra hormonal and a little crazy.
extra hormonal and a little crazy.
This is something we have just started recently sharing openly. I have been private about it for many reasons-I'm afraid of crying every time I talk about it, I get nervous about what people will say and think. Not sure why I care. Also I think if I don't admit it out loud it isn't true. Sometimes I think it is more of a timing issue and something I just need to be patient about.
I was told when I was 14 I would have a hard time getting pregnant but at 14 that was the last thing I was thinking about. Now I have been thinking about it. Thinking what I should have done to make myself more fertile. What I need to do now? Sometime I feel like I am being punished but I know that isn't true.
I just keep telling myself it will happen when it happens. Timing is essential in our Heavenly Father's plan and I truly have a testimony of this principle but sometime it is hard to have patience for thing I want.
I feel like I put this big secret out in the open.
"I am Rebecca and I struggle with infertility."
"I am Rebecca and I struggle with infertility."
Sunday, March 10, 2013
I have not been doing that great with my New Years resolutions. I am working at them but have been side tracked many time. I am going to start a all girls bunco night. I'm excited for this. I was making cards today and realized I miss all the parties I use to throw during college. My friends and coworker and I use to have cookie exchanges, salad exchanges and Pampered Chef parties. I miss that. Who is to say I cant do it now. Last month I participated in and FHE exchange. We now have 2 months of FHE lessons.
February was a busy month at work. We also got an acceptance letter on a house we have been waiting on since October. We found out our offer was excepted on Monday and on Tuesday we learned that a pipe had frozen and then burst flooding the master bedroom and the family room. Two weeks later we withdrew the offer....sad...Cody an I both feel that everything happens for a reason. We had made a decision, moved forward with faith and then were forced to make the course correction when needed.
I find that once again I get to learn to Trust the Lord and Trust his timing. Apparently this is a life lesson I will be learning over and over again.
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
Almost to the end of day one for 2013!!!
I want to share my goals for the year. The reasons are completely selfish.
Reason #1-Increase accountability
Reason #2-Create a support group
Reason #3-Open up. As I get older I am finding that I keep things personal, maybe a little too personal, almost like secret. I am afraid of being looked down upon, being judge or maybe just opening up a flood of emotions.
Resolution #1...Be Healthy!
This is probably the most positive way to state lose weight. But the WHAT is to lose weight and the WHY is to be Healthy. I personally think that why is super important in making a goals.
My awesome friend Jerusha and I started a group-Join Our Journey-to help motivate and encourage us. The Davey family is also having a Biggest Loser contest hosted my dad. The contest started today and goes until June 1.
Resolution #2-Positive Reflections
At the end of each day write down 4 things after reflecting on the day
TM: Tender Mercy or Tender Moment
G: Something I am grateful for
Heart: Something I love about Cody
S: A service rendered
I will go into more detail about each goal later but that is a good starting point.
Happy New Year, Rebecca