Infertility or Timing

Just finished my second month of Clomid. Let's just say I feel
extra hormonal and a little crazy.

This is something we have just started recently sharing openly. I have been private about it for many reasons-I'm afraid of crying every time I talk about it, I get nervous about what people will say and think. Not sure why I care. Also I think if I don't admit it out loud it isn't true. Sometimes I think it is more of a timing issue and something I just need to be patient about.

I was told when I was 14 I would have a hard time getting pregnant but at 14 that was the last thing I was thinking about. Now I have been thinking about it. Thinking what I should have done to make myself more fertile. What I need to do now? Sometime I feel like I am being punished but I know that isn't true. 

I just keep telling myself it will happen when it happens. Timing is essential in our Heavenly Father's plan and I truly have a testimony of this principle but sometime it is hard to have patience for thing I want. 

I feel like I put this big secret out in the open.

 "I am Rebecca and I struggle with infertility." 

Opening Up

I have not been doing that great with my New Years resolutions. I am working at them but have been side tracked many time. I am going to start a all girls bunco night. I'm excited for this. I was making cards today and realized I miss all the parties I use to throw during college. My friends and coworker and I use to have cookie exchanges, salad exchanges and Pampered Chef parties. I miss that. Who is to say I cant do it now. Last month I participated in and FHE exchange. We now have 2 months of FHE lessons. 

February was a busy month at work. We also got an acceptance letter on a house we have been waiting on since October. We found out our offer was excepted on Monday and on Tuesday we learned that a pipe had frozen and then burst flooding the master bedroom and the family room. Two weeks later we withdrew the offer....sad...Cody an I both feel that everything happens for a reason. We had made a decision, moved forward with faith and then were forced to make the course correction when needed.

I find that once again I get to learn to Trust the Lord and Trust his timing. Apparently this is a life lesson I will be learning over and over again.

Twenty-thirteen!!!

Almost to the end of day one for 2013!!!  

I want to share my goals for the year.  The reasons are completely selfish.

Reason #1-Increase accountability

Reason #2-Create a support group

Reason #3-Open up. As I get older I am finding that I keep things personal, maybe a little too personal, almost like secret. I am afraid of being looked down upon, being judge or maybe just opening up a flood of emotions.

Resolution #1...Be Healthy! 

This is probably the most positive way to state lose weight. But the WHAT is to lose weight and the WHY is to be Healthy. I personally think that why is super important in making a goals.  

My awesome friend Jerusha and I started a group-Join Our Journey-to help motivate and encourage us. The Davey family is also having a Biggest Loser contest hosted my dad. The contest started today and goes until June 1.

Resolution #2-Positive Reflections

At the end of each day write down 4 things after reflecting on the day

TM: Tender Mercy or Tender Moment

G: Something I am grateful for

Heart: Something I love about Cody

S: A service rendered

I will go into more detail about each goal later but that is a good starting point.

Happy New Year,  Rebecca

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas.

 Hope everyone had a great celebrations with your friends and family. We had a wonderful time celebrating. Here is a sneak inside our festivities.

Thanks to everyone we now have an "angry bird" and "batman" living at the house.

Family Christmas fun

 The Pioneer Tent Building in Downtown has an awesome Model Railroad exhibit. We stopped by and just happen to run into Santa. Keaton asked for a talking Woody at his Moms house and a police car at Daddys'. He is such a smart kid. We already have a talking Woody at our house so he needs it at his moms house.

For FHE (Family Home Evening) a few Mondays ago we went the Capital Building and saw the beautiful tree. It turns out that it was the tree from my neighbors house 

when I lived with my grandpa. It looks so beautiful. It was huge.

 I wondering how many lights are lighting it up.

While Cody was looking for a book Keaton built an airplane. Can you see it? ... I asked if it was a plane and an airport. He said, "No, its just a plane."

Happy Thanksgiving!

 I know I haven't posted in a while. This time of year as the year comes to a close
I start reflecting on my goal and accomplishment. Sadly I start out with many great intentions and dreams but have a hard time following through with things even the simple things. I am here today. Here with a THANKFUL heart, counting my blessings instead of name off things on my to-do list. I have so much to be thankful for...

Family-I am so blessed to have a great family. Parents that are a great example of hard work, diligence. Two  strong willed brothers that teach me about loving unconditionally everyday. My sisters and her sweet family. 

I have amazing in-laws, grandparents, a supportive husband and an adventure finding 3 year old. So blessed...

My job. it isn't my dream job but it provides for you family-our needs and wants

A calling. Primary Secretary. I love the testimony of the sweet children. I am amazed at the testimonies and knowledge of the gospel. I love being around the people that were most recently with our Father in Heaven.

Creativity. I might have a hard time accomplishing everything but I love dreaming.I have been sewing...maybe I should post pictures. I just finish sewing Keaton an apron for Christmas. I have 10 baby blankets waiting to warm a little bundle joy. (No we are not pregnant)

The Temple. The Boise Temple was rededicated last Sunday. It is beautiful. I am so grateful to have the temple open so closely again. Cody and I have been traveling to Twin. I have developed a connection with the Twin Falls Temple-I love it. I am excited to drive 2 minutes down the street. What a blessing to live in the Stake the temple is in.

These are a few of my favorite thought on Thanksgiving, word from our dear Prophet!

 Do we remember to give thanks for the blessings we receive? Sincerely giving thanks not only helps us recognize our blessings, but it also unlocks the doors of heaven and helps us feel God’s love.

My beloved friend President Gordon B. Hinckley said, “When you walk with gratitude, you do not walk with arrogance and conceit and egotism, you walk with a spirit of thanksgiving that is becoming to you and will bless your lives.”

 

Happy Thanksgiving!!!!!

L.I.F.E.

Life goes by so fast. Holy Cow... April, June, July, August...Finally September...It is cooling down, leaves are starting to change, Christmas is right around the corner. Wink, Wink... I know not everyone has an affinity for "Elf Culture" like me. Wink, Wink.

We have been having a great time, a hot summer. The ward boundaries changed so we are in a new ward. Cody has been busy with school. Keaton is working on potty training.-I think we have mastered number one, now we just need to perfect number two. He is close, so close. I went to Girls Camp, sewed blankets and aprons and cut my hair.